#hyperfocus brain go brrrr

[shaylogic]

Messy Masterpost: I don't have the words so here's a mess of links and ideas

@captainfantasticalright's Dead Boy Detectives: a breakdown of Dante's hell. This post is a masterpiece of understanding how the Hell/afterlife dynamics work in Sandman Universe and DBDA, and it's sent my mind buzzing like crazy

My post about Simon's book

Not just any book

Theory about Simon's brother/father? Being a part of Burgess' Cult ("Order of Ancient Mysteries")

Thank you @niko-sasaki-dbd

Ba'al ==> Sa'al

Seems like Simon may have gotten a demon-summoning book that worked from his brother who may have been involved on Burgess' cult from Sandman. He died with book in hand, and that's the one he's tearing apart on repeat in Hell. Tumblr user listed above identified what the book might be, based off the image.

This interview at 12:52 George Rexstrew answering that Edwin's favorite thing about Charles is his unconditional love and acceptance of him.

Post about Charles bearing his soul to the Night Nurse like Orpheus played music to Cerberus

Interviewer talking about "straight friend" Charles "rejecting" gay Edwin, only for George, Jayden, Beth, and Steve to stiffen up slightly. Asking about how Charles didn't have a gay panic reaction to Edwin's confession. This interviewer is actually gay and interviewed on a gay network later, which threw me after this question.

=>If Charles had really gay panic rejected Edwin, it really would have ended like Eurydice, thrust back to the pit of Hell to wallow in the internalized homophobia, rather than being released with the support and healthy love of Charles.

Actors have reiterated multiple times that the case is not closed on Edwin and Charles' romance, they're just getting started and figuring it out in the midst of all the chaos.

People are stuck in Hell because they believe they belong there but Edwin gets out the second time because Charles KNOWS he doesn't belong there! And reminds Edwin of this when he's getting pulled under in it all

Charles went back to his red polo after the confession and escaping Hell with @nerdytacollama's excellent addition on episode 7 specifically!!

Edwin's whole arc was about accepting loving and being loved and his attraction to men, and his love of his best friend, specifically

Steve Yockey saying the confession NEEDED to happen on the stairs out of Hell. One reason being that Edwin may have been too afraid to go through with it after, another being that he could get dragged away forever at any second and it could be his last chance.

[above article pic quote from this]

But also based on the Hell worldbuilding of the Sandman Universe where people only go to hell if they believe in it and believe they deserve to be there > Edwin believing his want for intimacy at all letalone with other men being "such a sinful life" (Night Nurse paperwork) > the upward climb of healthy love from the Dante's Inferno Post > Edwin HAD to confess on the stairs and be accepted! It freed him of Hell~!

Simon moved on from Hell with Edwin's mutual sorrow for the two of them and somewhat understanding/forgiveness? Maybe self-acceptance from the gay guilt

Edwin's form saying he would serve in Hell for living such a sinful life and then be reassigned to a more pleasant state (Hell not an eternal afterlife, just time served and then moving one)

[image posted in @reviewcreature's post with @melefim's addition]

If Edwin went back now, loved and accepted by his friends and himself, would he pass on to the better place?

My post wondering about reincarnation in the Sandman Universe, which others weighed in on in the comments about how it's indeed canon

The parallels of the Lust room in hell being a butcher shop with bloody hanging bodies to reflect the debauchery of bloody writhing lust bodies ===> compare to "Girls' Night" when Jenny was running and hiding from stalker Maxine in her butcher shop behind meat ===> compare Edwin's arc of accepting "sodomite sin" of being attracted to men (challenge to the epitome and catalyst (ha) by the Cat King) and him having been through the Lust room of hell before and him STARING AT THE RED BULL ON THE BUTCHER SHOP WALL (as compared to directly in the first linked post)

The purity of Charles and Edwin's love compared to that and the stereotypes of how male love is depicted in media, as George, Steve, and Jayden have spoken out against gently in multiple interviews

How it's partially childlike, partially deep friendship where two men can hug and cry, partially a crush, partially potentially reciprocally romantic

The juxtaposition of Edwin's archetypical confession to Charles on the stairs of Hell on the way out of the Limbo of it, with Maxine guilty and desperate just below them, not even looking toward the open door

Fans wondering why it was so easy to get out of Hell. The worldbuilding canon saying that Hell is what you make of it (Charles says this in the original Season of Mists Ch 4 comic, Edwin says it in episode 7 to Simon). People in Hell stuck because they feel they deserve it.

@podcastenthusiast's post about being glad Edwin didn't see Simon move on, because then he'd really wonder we he himself suffered so long

==>CHARLES got Edwin out because he KNEW he didn't belong there!!!!

They push and pull each other by the arms the whole way to the top!!!!!!!

Magical weight in the snake pit "nothing's meant to leave this place"

Charles literally dragging Edwin out of Hell for the love and devotion to him!!!!!!!!!!!!

Allegory of dragging him out of his self-rejection and holding him by the face saying over and over "I love you. I accept you. I'm not leaving without you."

Openly gay producer/director Steve Yockey insisting on being the one to write Episode 7 and you can feel it in every color on the screen.

There's no higher power deciding this, despite the paperwork and minders ensuring everyone is sorted. It's an internal self-decided fate, unconscious.

I'm not gonna be able to link and list every pic and organize this in the state I'm in but--

ARE YOU SEEING ALL THE THINGS I'M SEEING?

Girl help I'm getting visions!!!!!!!!!!!!

[theghostintheskeletonkey]

In today's episode of ADHD:

A great idea!

Aaaand it's gone.

[lotus-duckies]

i am so happy i found someone else with autistic shirabu and adhd taichi headcanons please tell me more

Shirabu

Reading body language is fine. Reading tone of voice and facial expressions? Absolute nightmare. People don't realize he doesn't understand or catch what they mean so it's a cycle of Misunderstanding

That kid who can't deal with Textures but also. Wants to rub his face on Nice Textures to an obsessive extent (nice probably meaning Soft)

Gets So Upset over tiny things that are bothersome he needs to physically get up and leave to Calm down

A big reason why he went to shiratorizawa was because he heard about Ushijima's behaviors and went "this BIG VERY COOL player is like me!!

Cuts his own hair don't tease him about it (sometimes goshiki asks for a haircut)

Doesn't like stimming where people can see him. (Common stims include tapping his fingers together, cracking his neck, petting things, blinking and or rolling his eyes)

People telling jokes and him not understanding them or not laughing is low key something that scares him.

Suffers from Inappropriate Laughing as a response to some situations. Also fits od laughter that seem to happen for no reason. Thankfully doesn't happen often.

@uwu-oikawa mentioned Shirabu just staring at people when needing to make eye contact and I can just imagine him making everyone super uncomfortable and they're just begging for him to stop.

Swings between "no touch no touch" and "if someone doesn't crush me with a 40 minute long hug I will Die" would he admit it? No

Has he been wearing the same shirt for 3 days? Maybe.

Kawanishi (i actually like imagining he has ADHD and Autism but it's Fine)

Shirabu and Kawanishi engage in echolalia @ eachother this is a fact

Felt very bad about his crappy attention span and inability to focus for a long time.

Remembers the Wikipedia page on glass frogs but not if he ate today, what someone just said to him, or anything in between

Both he and Shirabu like staring at lights and Sparkly things

Fidget fidget fidget

Can't just. Sit down and look at his school email for 5 minutes but proceeds to spend 6 hours playing Animal Crossing

He is not Lazy he's just constantly in the state of Tired and Dysfunction with occasional HYPERFIXATION GO BRRRR

Starting taking adderall in elementary school. Prefers to take it Soley for school.

Daydreaming about his Current Fixations and internal conversations instead of listening to people talk

Has super vivid and strong emotions and mood swings and they make him want to curl up and die

Sometimes he talks really fast and starts slurring his words from talking so fast

His favorite fidget "toy" is a stuffed rat. He just slaps the tail against his arm until his arm turns red.

He and shirabu get along super well in ADHD/Autism solidarity. Not just because of they're both second years, they're kind of quiet and expressionless. It's because some feelings are Bad and you can't help but hyperfocus on this stupid thing for hours and days and some motor skills can be Hard and memory can be Crap and brain goes Too Much and more.

[moved-meadows]

okay im gonna be real my brain is a mess and I have no internal motivation. i go between six (currently) wips and write whatever i feel like whenever I feel inspo. I have a tendency to abandon fics for long periods of time (sorry theres a beast in the woods) and if I do get the energy to write its a hyperfocus and suddenly 5k words are on a doc and its one am.

that said, I do have ways of helping me, little tips that help.

first, outlines? too much work, adhd brain go brrrr. no, instead I tend to do bullet notes. basically if I have a long fic planned out (in this case threads) I ask myself "why I am writing this, whats the point, and what scenes specifically am I trying to write."

so threads is: reincarnation aus are pog, how can I fit it into bittersweets universe, and how can I show soulmates can be platonic and/or romantic. point is skephalo sometimes romo sometimes no homo but what are their lives like throughout the ages. and scenes are: techno and bbh in the afterlife and their progression, lesbian Victorian skephalo, and a few others im not gonna mention cuz spoilers

now, all of this takes place in my head, because writing it down is way too much effort, but that last bit? thats what were gonna start our bullet points on

so I start making points of scenes i wanna write vaguely keeping order in mind

now I keep all my stuff in a Google doc, which means I can access it on my phone. this includes the bullet points because the next step of the Process is daydream mode

now daydream mode is anytime i have where my brain is bored and needs spare serotonin I think of the fic I wanna write and plan it out. I think in sentences and stuff, so I tend to also think of the prose and all that as well as dialogue. now obvi im not gonna remember all of it, but it gets the imagination going so that when I get home, I can get right to work.

if I happen to think of a cool scene I wanna add, tho, into the bullet list it goes!

I have more tips if you want, but this is already pretty long and I dont wanna bore you lol. so have this! hopefully it helps at least a little! -tiny

👁👁✍🏽right yes mhmm

[tallsuperstar]

Brain go brrrr I played Legends Arceus today like for 8 hours straight then got up after my switch died and I checked discord and realized I had not eaten (the hyperfocus effect)